So, last week I wrote that I am starting a blog. I still feel “EEEKKK!” when I think about it. Do you know how scared I was to push that “publish” button on that post? But I’m SO glad that I did. The response I got from some of you was so unexpected, but so encouraging and sweet….thank you. Really. Thank you so much. I look forward to continuing on this new journey and seeing where it leads me.
I am quite nervous about it, and am unpacking why that is. Having a blog, to me, seems more like a private diary of sorts. I have no problem sharing things on Facebook or Instagram. Those social media platforms I am very comfortable on and tend to share more happy and positive things than sad and troublesome. I do like to try to keep things positive….in this world, we can all use that. I do open up a bit more on Facebook than I do on Instagram, but in this space I want to and will share alllll of the things. Good, bad, happy, sad. There will still be a line of privacy that I will not cross – for myself and for my family – but I want to use this place as a space to let go. To explore. To discover. I want it to be intentional with it. I feel that I am honest and can be a bit vulnerable on Facebook and for the most part I am, but I feel like I can take a little further here on the blog. How much further, I’m not sure. I’m just going to go with the flow and see what feels good and what doesn’t. So if you’re following along, bear with me as I find my voice and my groove. The ride will be bumpy, but I’m cool with that.
I do have a single goal for this place of mine. I want it to be a safe space. A place where I can share things (which I am still figuring out. I’ve got a super long list of ideas that I can’t wait to get off of the paper and into this blog!). Things that light me up. Things that scare me. My triumphs. My failures. ALL the happy AND all the hard things. Things I think about. Things I obsess over. I want it to be a place where I can build my own little community. I want to share what makes up my world. I don’t know who will read, who will respond, who will comment. But right now, I don’t really care. I am doing this for me.
There are a couple of words up there that are in bold. You see them? Those are my words for 2016. Have you heard of people doing that at the start of the new year? I’ve been doing it for the last 3 or 4 years. Instead of making a long list of resolutions that I’ll eventually break and forget about, I choose one or two words that are my focus for the new year. This year is the year to discover and be intentional. I’ll go into why I chose those two words later, in another post. But those words will be a guide for me this year. Some days, I’m better at focusing on them than others, but they are a foundation for the year. I’ll write about them throughout the year to see how I’m doing and how they are keeping me accountable.
Feelings and thoughts right now? That this feels good. It feels good to sit and think and write this all out. I like it. So, I’m going with it and will hit “publish” with a little less fear than I did last week. A little less.
I’ll be back in a few days with something fun to share. Not sure yet what it will be but that’s ok. I’m just going with the flow. And that feels pretty good to me.
Have a lovely Wednesday.