I hadn’t picked up my big camera in months before yesterday. I’d see it there, on top of my desk, gathering dust. I knew I needed to pick it up and take it out to shoot, but resisted it. I think part of it is the ease of using my iPhone camera….I have become WAY dependent on it. There are no settings to play with, I can edit the photos as soon as I take them. etc. There are some things that I still don’t know about my camera and I let that fear stop me from moving forward. Also, I started comparing myself to other photographers and thinking I’m not as good as them, so why bother. It’s hard not to do when all you look at are other photographers’ work, thinking it’s for inspiration, but you’re really just judging yourself.
I know, dumb to do that. Not cool.
I LOVE photography. Love it. And it’s a huge part of my life. I love taking photos and making memories. So, I decided to get over the silliness and take the camera out yesterday while the kiddos and I went strawberry picking. And I’m so glad I did.
I LOVE the photos I took. These images make my heart happy.
I have a few shoots coming up this summer and I’m really excited about them. I haven’t been shooting as much as I’d like, because, frankly, I didn’t want to put myself out there (fear, self esteem, that silly voice in my head telling me that I’m not that great). I want to fall more in love with photography. I want to get back to the passion I have for it.
So, I’m going to leave my DSLR out where I can see it and take a photo everyday for the next month. Just for me. Of anything. I’ve also stopped looking at other photographers’ work so that I can just focus on my own. So that I can grow. So that I can just do me. I’m looking forward to it. ❤️